Pretending Not To Notice

The Cost of Misplaced Attention

Intrusions

Let them creep in-feelings, visions, desires to intrude. They interrupt what makes you unusual.

Loyal, honest to a fault. Now lies are jokes, and your partner feels strange when she mirrors the fake, chaotic world around you. Smiles rotted stuck from doing dirt, and deeds that don't include self-love.

Disasters

Thoughts loop like chaos in a “final destination” scenario. Neglect and society pressures twist our children into someone else.

Media shapes common slaves, all fighting to hold a place in a world that encourages desperation. You hide. You feel alone. Embarrassed to be seen outside the hate you live on. So, you miss hugging your children. You can’t feel joy in a smile. You can’t even love who shares your bed.

What made you so hurt?

If you feel weak using that word, now you know why hate makes people feel superior. Giving desire to end things that matter holds the life of your attention. And you act like all the hurt people and do all the hateful things we dare not mention.

Observe

Be careful how you walk through your day. The time is always the same. It’s just the behavior that changes.

Connection

Be observant in another's space. Read the lines on faces. They lead to depths where emotions are punished by selfish acts hoping for rewards you no longer feel worthy of.

Cycles

Some of us escape to move forward after loss, an excuse to hold love hostage, saying: “If you leave, you never loved me.” We attend to distractions, bottles, and routines that keep our world from breaking. It’s all that feels possible when scary dreams are lived publicly.

Neglect

You struggle to show up when it matters. That burning feeling in your stomach, like you've been poisoned. Food for thought, negativity and neglect starve what makes family special. Get your energy up. I never heard of anyone too tired to fuck up love until they're too old to give some.

Don't wait until your family's too tired of your old habits.

Is there such a thing as a healthy deficit of love?

Regret & Lost Time

Think about the ones who got away. Missing moments that matter instead of scattering energy on breasts, to avoid making more bastards.

Treat spending time as the benefit. It's the priceless insurance that pays lifetimes after you're missed. And along with a legacy of knowledge, wisdom and riches, good memories are a father's greatest gift.

Music I'm Enjoying

Ghostface Killah (his new album Supreme Clientele 2)

Book I'm still Reading

Tubal-Cain (The Ancient Masonic Blacksmith God)

Dad Joke

Did you butt dial me? I swear your booty is calling me.

To all the Father's wondering HOW THE FUCK DO I DO THIS?

My advice is "Just don't pull out!"