Waking Up A Problem

I guess that’s part of the new year.

Feeling sick, caused by people you’ve hurt who seize opportunities to return the stress

Heartache. Gut-wrenching.

Body seizing. Exhausting. Headache flu.

Shit that makes you feel like your life is a dump.

How many times have you went to bed writhing from problems your ego enjoys.

Screwing yourself is almost as fun as others.

The fun lies in the mind and hand of the holder.

Then you wake up tilted.

Like a man on edge.

Closing in on destruction.

Holding onto redemption.